mormonproblems: I’ve heard this sooo many times in my life… and i always realize how true it is.  To preface this post, I’m an inactive convert. Like, super-inactive, cohabiting with my boyfriend, kid out of the confines of marriage, the WORKS, baby. I am about as inactive-Mormon as I could get without having a sex change and bombing a temple.THAT SAID, my time being a Mormon was a happy time. I believe in a lot of what the church has to say. I think most of my own issues with the church stem from feeling unworthy, and with living my life happily in opposition to doctrine. I felt the gossip train fiercely when my husband and I separated. People had no qualms about contacting me and asking straight up what was going on. I didn’t have many close friends in my ward, so that part was really weird - people’s sudden interest in why I no longer was attending and where my husband was was incredibly bizarre and served to sort of cut into my happiness with the religion. It can be hard to see past people’s imperfections to the good part - the words and stories in their basic form. Doctrine, eeeh, not so much. I have a lot of issues with the idea that since my husband hit me and I left him, I can’t be sealed to my children in the temple. I have issues with some of the more blatant patriarchal traditions. Mostly, though, I’m just happy with my fornicating, offbeat lifestyle. I still read the BoM once in a while when I need something familiar to comfort me, and I listen to hymns with my kids, and I also have kinky sex with my boyfriend and currently have no plans to return to the church. My son regularly tells me he wants to see the temple with me someday, though. <3 I still believe in God, and Christ, and I pray regularly, and sometimes I wish I felt okay going back, but I’m not that much of a masochist. One thing the church and lots of intense prayer during my conversion DID teach me, beyond all else, is that God loves me no matter what, even if I refuse to be sorry for who I am and the life I choose to lead. That is what I choose to depart from Mormonism with: love.

mormonproblems:

I’ve heard this sooo many times in my life… and i always realize how true it is. 

To preface this post, I’m an inactive convert. Like, super-inactive, cohabiting with my boyfriend, kid out of the confines of marriage, the WORKS, baby. I am about as inactive-Mormon as I could get without having a sex change and bombing a temple.

THAT SAID, my time being a Mormon was a happy time. I believe in a lot of what the church has to say. I think most of my own issues with the church stem from feeling unworthy, and with living my life happily in opposition to doctrine.

I felt the gossip train fiercely when my husband and I separated. People had no qualms about contacting me and asking straight up what was going on. I didn’t have many close friends in my ward, so that part was really weird - people’s sudden interest in why I no longer was attending and where my husband was was incredibly bizarre and served to sort of cut into my happiness with the religion. It can be hard to see past people’s imperfections to the good part - the words and stories in their basic form. Doctrine, eeeh, not so much. I have a lot of issues with the idea that since my husband hit me and I left him, I can’t be sealed to my children in the temple. I have issues with some of the more blatant patriarchal traditions. Mostly, though, I’m just happy with my fornicating, offbeat lifestyle.

I still read the BoM once in a while when I need something familiar to comfort me, and I listen to hymns with my kids, and I also have kinky sex with my boyfriend and currently have no plans to return to the church. My son regularly tells me he wants to see the temple with me someday, though. <3

I still believe in God, and Christ, and I pray regularly, and sometimes I wish I felt okay going back, but I’m not that much of a masochist. One thing the church and lots of intense prayer during my conversion DID teach me, beyond all else, is that God loves me no matter what, even if I refuse to be sorry for who I am and the life I choose to lead. That is what I choose to depart from Mormonism with: love.

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